it's been a while.

I haven't blogged in a LONG time! wow, sorry..lol a lot has happened since my last blog so let me explain what all has gone on in a nutshell...

So i finally got to visit Johnson!!! i loved it. i loved seeing old friends that i hadn't seen in a long time, and meeting new people. I had an absolute blast!I could see myself going to school there....Unfortunately, even though i feel like that may be the school for me. I need to be brought back to reality. I feel like i would be dumb if i didn't go to a school in Indiana, i mean a full ride scholarship to any public school in the state..why wouldn't i throw that all away? As much as i want a christian environment, i have to realize in the long run what going to a Private Christan school would actually do...PUT ME IN SERIOUS DEBT! which is something I'm already in, just from going to Huntington for a year..i really don't want to keep adding to that price. Also, after driving there and back it made me realize how far away it actually is from home. I don't know if i can be that far away from my family and friends....I know i'll get homesick..and i know that's something i need to learn to get over...but i don't know if i will be able to handle it. Also, not alot of my credits will transfer over :/ i don't want this whole year to go to waste and not have credits transfer, i've worked too hard for them to not even count :/
UGH DECISION'S!! what i'm thinking right now is i'm just going to go to IVY tech for a year, figure out what it is I really want to do with my life, and give me some time to figure out what school i want to go to. And really seek out what God's plan is for me. I would appreciate prayer from anyone who reads this....It's not an easy situation to be in. & it's very stressful.

School is SLOWLY coming to a close! i'm ready for summer! I'm ready for those late nights out, bonfires, smoking cigars on Ben's porch :) and late night drives. This is the first summer where i'm actually going to be spending at home, without having much to do. I'm not really looking forward to the nothing to do part. But Freshman-Senior year of high school my summers consisted of 9am-5pm practices..and by the time i got home i was exhausted!! & this summer after my senior year i work at Rainbow Christian Camp :) which I loved!! & wish i could work there again this summer, but I'm taking classes over the summer, so i can't :/ but seriously this is my first Summer to just relax..idk if i'm going to like it or not...but it should be fun. I'm just ready for it to be here already!!

One thing that is really starting to aggravate me, is people who seem to take life for granite(idk if i spelled that right) these days. I don't understand why people think that their life is a living hell basically. Constant complaining, and talking about how bad things are. I understand that people have it rough, and i totally understand that some situations are tough to deal with. But when it become and everyday occurrence where you just complain about all the bad stuff, it sometimes gets frustrating. People don't realize how good of a life they actually have. I mean at least you have a roof over your head, clothes on your back, and food on the table. There are so many people in this world who aren't as lucky as we are to have simple things like that.I hope this doesn't make me sound like a bad person, i mean if someone has a problem i'm more than happy to help them with it, i don't mean to come off as a "bitch" or anything. I mean sometimes you just have to vent and complain. I do it, and i know others do to. It just aggravates me when people can't stay positive about situations that aren't really that big of a deal. Wow i feel like this paragraph is one big confusion. I hope you all can understand the point i'm trying to make here.


Anyways;
this blog entry is getting long, so i'm going to just leave it at that :)