First, my relationship with God, is still a work in progress. I'm still not where i need to be, or where i want to be..but i'm working very hard on it. I guess when you feel like you don't deserve God's love for the mistakes you have made, can really bring you down. But i'm starting to realize & BELIEVE that God will love me no matter what. & even though i may have turned my back on him. He was still holding on. Each day gets better, each day i see something that reminds me how wonderful God really is. Especially now since spring has hit and it's so wondeful outside. & just looking around and seeing/feeling his wonderful creation. God is good... :) I also believe that the past couple of months..(september-february) instead of turning away from God, i should have turned towards him. I went through some pretty rough stuff, that still has an effect on me to this day. But with God's help, i'm getting stronger. again, God is good!! Looking back on where i was in september to where i am now....i have grown tremendously! & I thank God for continuing to bless the broken road that i'm on.
Speaking of blessings...I've been blessed with a wonderful man.
This..is Derek :)
The man that i am completely in love with. I don't even know what to say about him, other than the fact that he is absolutly amazing! I've never had such a strong feeling for someone before...until he walked into my life. He makes me laugh more than anyone has ever been able to do. I can be my complete self around him which is something i love! I don't have to hold back, or try & pretend like i'm something i'm not. When we are together, we just have fun! I love being around him. Unfortunatly, he goes to school in Huntington where i used to go...and thats where we first met :) So the distance is not fun! it kills me when we are apart! but, i'm so crazy about him. & I thank God everyday for bringing him into my life...because i feel like Derek has saved me.. God brought him into my life for a reason. & i couldn't be happier. I've found all i've waited for, & i could not ask for more <3 I've never been with someone who makes me feel like the most beauiful girl in the world..but derek definatly makes me feel that way. I love him more than words can even begin to describe. He is so good to me. & i can't wait to see what God has in store for the both of us :)
Another big exciting/nervous/scary thing that is going to happen here in the next month, is that my dad is FINALLY getting a knee replacement! Which is something he has been needing for years now! Last year they thought they were going to try and do 2 things...1 is that they were going to try & put him in braces to try and straighten his legs out...but we didn't want to go with that option for many reasons. 2ndly they were going to try and do something where they were going to break his legs & try and fuse his bones back together to make them straigther..i believe..something a long those lines anyways...but again for many reasons we decided against that option. So..we put off going to doctors for a while..But in the past few months my dad's pain has gotten worse & it's harder for him to walk & it takes him a while to get up..which breaks my heart. So finally, he decided to go to a new specialist, where they decided they were going to do a knee replacement!! This will add a few more years with his ability to walk. which is one thing my dad really wanted...he told the doctors one thing that really worried him was that he wasn't going to be able to walk me down the aisle when i got married...so hopefully now, he will be able to walk me down..and not ride down beside me on a scooter. That will be an emotional day when my dad WALKS me down :) But anyways..big surgery on April 27th. So prayers are very appreciated!!
Thats all of the blogging i'm doing for now..maybe i won't take as long this next time to blog..
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